It was several weeks after Cora went to heaven that Joel told me about this song.
I had heard it many times, but didn't realize how much meaning it would come to have for our family.
It was the song that was playing as we drove to the hospital with our sweet Cora. We didn't talk the whole way there. We were in shock and just cried as we wondered if our perfect baby could really have cancer. I don't even remember hearing the radio as my mind was desperately trying to make sense of what was happening to our family. But Joel remembers. God You Reign.
It was the song that played late that same night as Joel drove home from the hospital by himself. He was going to pack a bag for us as we found out we would be staying for awhile. We were anticipating Cora having surgery the next day. We were so scared. God You Reign.
And it has been the song that we have heard over and over as we try to continue forward as a family without Cora. It might be an overplayed song on the radio. But to us it is a constant reminder that no matter what we are feeling emotionally, the truth is still the same. God You Reign.
We both love that little voice at the very end of the song. Even though our little Cora was barely saying a few words when she left us, it is like she is whispering down a reminder to her mama and daddy. A reminder that we are going to be okay. God You Reign.
I love how Lincoln Brewster explains the meaning behind this song.
I wrote this post at the beginning of last week. I was planning on finishing it and posting the next day. But then my week just seemed to fall apart. It was a hard week for both of us. I'm not sure what exactly it was. Maybe it is the seasons changing. Another reminder of "firsts" that we are missing out on with Cora. Maybe it is the playground dedication that is coming up, bringing with it so many emotions. Or maybe it is simply that we miss our baby girl and our hearts continue to hurt. It was just one of those weeks.
So today as I look ahead at a new week. I think I need to be reminded again.
God You Reign.