The Macs

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

movin' on up

Seriously mom.
I am almost 20 pounds.

My head touches the top of the bassinet,

and my feet touch the bottom.

Don't you think it is time for me to move to my own room?

Let's just say I have been having a hard time letting go.
Levi has been sleeping in this bassinet next to our bed since he was born.
It is the same one that Cora slept in.
Except my brother made a really cool bassinet stand for Levi.

Cora moved to the crib when she was three months old.
I thought we would do the same with Levi.
But I was really struggling with him being in another room this time.

I like being able to peek over at him in the middle of the night.
I like being able to reach my hand over and make sure he is still breathing.
I held out as long as I could.
But he seriously was outgrowing the thing.
He would hold onto both handles with his little hands.
He even started rocking it a little.
It just might have become a little bit of a safety issue. :o)

So I gave in and Levi officially moved into his own room last week.
I'm slowly getting used to it.
And I think he likes having a little extra room in his crib.
The poor guy was crammed in that bassinet.

Cora's room is transforming into Levi's room.
I am almost done.
I am working on a little painting this week.
I still need to add something on the windows too.
I can't wait to show it to you when I'm done.

In the mean time,
I'll try to work on letting go a little.
It is so hard though.


Blogger Kristi REDISKE said...

He is so precious-and your posts are so cute and honest, love it. I can't wait to see his room-you are very talented-you are amazing. I still pray for your family.

May 18, 2010 at 10:29 PM  
Blogger The Moffats said...

loved this post - it made me smile. Such darling pictures...all stretched out touching the top and bottom :) Can't wait to see the room. I'm sure it will be perfect.

May 18, 2010 at 10:32 PM  
Blogger Laura Ann said...

This is so funny to me. I love it and Levi reminds me so much of my little boy who is not 14 months old. He was very big, just like your guy. The bassinet worked for us for about 2 weeks. My daughter stayed in the cradle 6 months, he lasted weeks and then went to his bed.

Levi is a beautiful little boy and so happy. Thanks for sharing. Always praying for you.

May 18, 2010 at 10:36 PM  
Blogger Morgan Paige said...


May 18, 2010 at 10:37 PM  
Blogger Bethany said...

He is such a sweetie.

May 18, 2010 at 10:38 PM  
Blogger Devon said...

aw, this post was cracking me up! and yet, i know how hard it is to let go....good job mama!

can't wait to see his new room! and i'm so sad cora can't be there to share in all your joy....

May 18, 2010 at 10:47 PM  
Blogger Jennjilla said...

Awww, what a sweet boy! He is so precious!

May 18, 2010 at 10:53 PM  
Blogger purejoy said...

letting go is so hard… especially for a child so dear. the bassinet stand is so beautiful. mmmm. i wnat to give my kids basket bassinets like that when they have babies. how easy for them to sleep on the go, too.
he's absolutely beautiful!

May 18, 2010 at 10:59 PM  
Blogger Hoosier Couponers said...

what a sweet boy... and a loving Mommy! It is hard to let go... my son just finished his 3rd year in college and I still miss him tons when he is gone to school. Never gets any easier : )

May 18, 2010 at 11:01 PM  
Blogger Marla Taviano said...

Aw, Jess. Praying for you!

May 18, 2010 at 11:21 PM  
Blogger Amanda said...

We laughed out loud at these pictures! I know this is just one more thing you have to get used to. I'm so glad Levi is liking his crib - but I'm so sad you are having to adjust to one more tough thing. Soon his room is going to be full of cars, balls and blocks -and you'll walk in and step all over things or stub your foot in the dark - and you won't even have a chance to think about anything else!

May 18, 2010 at 11:33 PM  
Blogger The Mershawn's said...

He's just too cute. Hard to take those little squishy things & stick them in a room all by themselves. I had a hard time with my baby a few months ago. Maybe it's a boy thing. Maybe I'm just more of a softie. Maybe because we know how fast it all goes....sigh. It'll get better. Sort of:)...

May 18, 2010 at 11:33 PM  
Blogger meg duerksen said...

it has to be so hard jess!
i would do the same thing....i can't believe he isn't IN the bed! i don't think i could NOT have him in there.

can't wait to see his room. :)

May 18, 2010 at 11:42 PM  
Blogger madelyn said...

<3 and prayers.

May 18, 2010 at 11:43 PM  
Blogger Vanessa said...

I remember when my daughter was born and I said we would keep her beside our bed in the pack n play until she was about a month old. Then she was almost three months and I couldn't part with her. I loved listening to her breathe and sigh and having the ability to look over and look at her throughout the night. I am due to have a boy in July and the one thing I asked for was a bigger pack n play so that he can sleep in our room. I tell everyone its because we don't want him sharing a room with his sister until he sleeps well through the night but honestly I just want to keep him close as long as I can! Levi is such an adorable BIG boy ;)

May 19, 2010 at 12:39 AM  
Anonymous Christina said...

I can't help but smile when I look at him...he's so cute! My mom would say he's a butterball turkey. :)
Continue to pray for you...peace, comfort, whatever you might need on a given day.
And your family get-togethers looked like so much fun!

May 19, 2010 at 2:07 AM  
Blogger Stef said...

he is SO darn cute, Jess! My goodness. He makes me ache for another boy. Our son is almost 5 1/2 and we've had 2 girls since his birth. I keep secretly wishing our 4th (if God gives us a 4th) will be a boy :)

May 19, 2010 at 2:23 AM  
Blogger Immeasurably More Mama said...

I know what you're feeling. Our little guy will be four months old on the 29th and he slept in his own room for the first time last night. It's hard letting go. I am also working on finishing up his room to make it more his own. : )

Jess, what setting to you use on your camera? Your photos are always so bright and beautiful. I need to know what you do! I have a Canon Rebel t1i, the lens it came with, and the 50mm/f1.8 lens too. Can you give any suggestions?

May 19, 2010 at 5:44 AM  
Blogger Rachel said...

My Peter sounds like he's on the same growth chart! We had a quick visit to the doc yesterday and at 14 weeks he's 15.5 lbs!

Strong, Kansas stock I say!

May 19, 2010 at 7:12 AM  
Blogger Aaron and Shannon said...

Jess...I can't believe how big Levi has gotten! He looks about the size of Cole! It is hard to move them to another room! Can't wait to see it when you're done!

May 19, 2010 at 8:23 AM  
Blogger Aaron and Shannon said...

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May 19, 2010 at 8:24 AM  
Blogger Lauren said...

WOW, he is definitely a growing boy. Crib time for sure, haha!!! :)

May 19, 2010 at 8:25 AM  
Blogger The Buchanan Family said...

He's such a big boy! He is growing up to fast!

May 19, 2010 at 8:26 AM  
Blogger Ellen said...

I love the saying...there are two things you give your is roots and the other is wings. I have always said that I found it easy to plant those roots but very difficult to give them wings (no matter what stage in life they are...from leaving a cradle to leaving home to get married!)
I will continue to pray for you, Joel,Cora and precious Levi-the big guy ! God Bless you all !

May 19, 2010 at 8:50 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Davison said...

Way to go! Everything we do in life is one step at a time. Trust in the Lord. He has big plans for Levi.

May 19, 2010 at 8:59 AM  
Blogger Tamara said...

Levi is such a big little boy!

May 19, 2010 at 9:29 AM  
Blogger Candice said...

Yeah, he's looking a bit big for the Moses basket...LOL.

May 19, 2010 at 9:40 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

My advice? Don't feel like you need to let go. I co-slept with all my children until they were ready for their own beds. For more room and comfort, they would have a mattress on the floor beside or at the foot of my bed. No rush, mama. They are not little for very long and they will have lovely early memories of sleeping next to their parents. HUGS

May 19, 2010 at 9:59 AM  
Anonymous tara said...

Hello, I don't comment often but read all your posts and your little Levi is just darling..I just wanted to suggest the Angel Monitor, as it might make you feel better about him being in his room, it signals if he stops breathing! my son has seizures and we use this monitor and it works great! just a suggestion so you will sleep a wee bit better!! xo~ Tara

May 19, 2010 at 11:03 AM  
Blogger Tara said...

I'm goin thru the same thing right now ... And it's so hard!!! But Haden has slept 2 nights in a row in his own room! AND he ate green beans last night too! :((((. Haha. He's just growin' up wayyyyy too fast!

May 19, 2010 at 12:09 PM  
Blogger julie said...

hi, I have been a reader for a long time now...just wanted to let you know that I can relate. We lost our first little boy at birth. We have had two healthy girls in the 4 years since. My 2 year old slept in our room until she was one and my 8 month old is still there now. It is so hard for me to move them to their own rooms too. I love being able to watch them through the night. I think when You've experience the loss of a child it makes this harder. Thank you for sharing you life and family. God bless

May 19, 2010 at 12:29 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Aww Momma he is getting so big..He is beautiful..I can only imagine how hard EVERYTHING is for you. My heart hurts for you. can't wait to see the pictures of the room.


May 19, 2010 at 2:10 PM  
Blogger hoosier68 said...

Our granddaughter slept in a cradle that my husband made for our children and then passed on to the grandchildren. Our daughter couldn't bring herself to move her to the crib until the morning she saw her hanging on to the rails on both sides of the cradle with her head and feet touching the ends like Levi. How do they grow so quickly? Loved your post.

May 19, 2010 at 2:13 PM  
Blogger Amanda said...

I can't wait to see pics of Levi's new room! I'll pray for you you continue to adjust to the changes.

May 19, 2010 at 2:51 PM  
Blogger waiting said...

I just read through your comments, and I want to second the comment on the Bebe Sounds Angelcare Monitor. I bought it for my now 1 year old. I have an 8 year old, and then I had 2 back to back miscarriages after several years of infertility. Finally when our miracle boy was born, I was scared to death to let him sleep in his own bed. (he also preferred his stomach over back right from the start). So, I bought the monitor. I never lost a wink of sleep after that. He has been in his own bed since about 8 weeks, and I would have paid double for the peace of mind it gave me. Just a thought! BTW....he is so precious! He looks like he's saying, "Really mom.....I love you and all, but this has got to stop! Look how big I am:)" He is soooo cute!

May 19, 2010 at 3:25 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Southern said...

He's adorable! baby P is 5 months old and is still in our room. Upstairs to his nursery is just too far away for me right now. He sleeps in his pack and play in our room so at least he's not in the bed, right? Can't wait to see his room!

May 19, 2010 at 3:29 PM  
Blogger Beki - TheRustedChain said...

Of course I'm not telling you anything you don't already know...

But I think it's about achieving the perfect balance of letting go and still hanging on. And even when you've reached that balance, it's never going to feel perfect.

You're a wonderful mommy!

May 19, 2010 at 4:08 PM  
Blogger Wenzel Family said...

What a cutie!!! Question for you...I remember seeing a quilt in the photos when you were starting to make Cora's room into Levi' with white stars! Can you tell me where you found this? Both of your babies are so adorable!

May 19, 2010 at 4:26 PM  
Blogger k and c's mom said...

HA! Those "crowded" pictures are so funny. He has the sweetest expressions on his face. I think you kept him there just exactly the right amount of time. Trust your heart, sweet girl, and take your time in the journey. You are doing a great job.

May 19, 2010 at 5:33 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

The stand your brother made is beautiful -- what a special gift! Levi is one super cute little guy no matter where he sleeps!

May 19, 2010 at 6:21 PM  
Blogger Melissa Jensen said...

He looks so much like Joel to me!! I miss seeing you guys every sunday!! Glad I have your blog to read to stay in touch! Take care!! He is super cute and I love his sweet face!

May 19, 2010 at 8:12 PM  
Blogger littlemissmk said...

still think of your family often. God bless you three :)

May 20, 2010 at 12:55 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Boot said...

I haven't been on in quite a while, busy with my own little bruiser (who was 15lb at 6 weeks!!!) You are doing great. You've already moved him to his room at this stage but I would say, if it feels to early then just bring him back. My 2.5 year old slept with us until she was 2 (IN the bed, I've never been kicked in the eye quite as much as the last year lol) and even now that she's in her own bed, comes into our bed every night. Her brother (the fat one) is 11 weeks and I won't move him out until he's at least 6 months and possibly alot longer...just as well I have a patient husband lol. Your boy is beautiful, I love to see your updates even though I don't have much handsfree time to comment these days and even though we're strangers, I'm still very proud of how you are handling so much emotion all the time. Levi is a lucky little man

May 20, 2010 at 4:09 AM  
Blogger Jenifer's Journey said...

He is getting so big and cuter by the minute...cant wait to see his room

May 20, 2010 at 6:04 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

he is gorgeous and I love his bassinet . . .

I have an award for you over at my blog.

May 20, 2010 at 9:18 PM  
Blogger Deborah said...

I can't wait to see the room. Levi is just so darn cute. I can see why you have been stalling a bit. You can still sneak in and take a peek.

May 20, 2010 at 9:44 PM  
Blogger Alisha said...

Cora will never be replaced and while you are letting go, just try and look at it as moving forward and honoring her like you have done since she passed. She has a smile that lights up the world and the older Levi gets he is going to love hearing about his big sis and how special he is to be able to be blessed with using baby items that his sister used. I think that it probably is tough on you seeing a new baby in what was viewed as Cora's things, but I think in the long run, later in life - Levi is going to love that he had that bond with her. I think he will feel her presence in her old bedroom and she will be his guardian angel to watch over him.

I've never posted before but just wanted you to know that anyone with even 1/2 of a brain is going to realize and know you are not replacing Cora with Levi and you are going to love him just as wholeheartedly as you did Cora. God bless you and you keep Cora's memory alive. He (Levi) will thank you and as well, it will be great for your mental healing. Your heart will always be filled with love for Cora so you don't have to worry about losing that.

I admire your honesty on this blog - you don't sugar coat that life has moved on and things are just perfect and full of bliss. Your feelings you share are raw and so real. I'm proud of you (coming from a perfect, total stranger - lol) but I admire your transparency.

May God continue to work on your healing - and healing does not equate to forgetting. May He strengthen your marriage and also let you love Levi without any guilt or mixed feelings.

I will continue to pray for you during this time of transition.


May 20, 2010 at 11:10 PM  
Blogger Bonnie said...

Levi is getting so big & he is so precious! My baby boy will be 5 months tomorrow. He weighed 17 lbs. 4 oz. at his appointment this week. Babies grow so quickly! Can't wait to see pics of his room...

May 20, 2010 at 11:18 PM  
Blogger The Lundstroms said...

I totally understand. I slept on the floor of my daughter's room for the first 2 weeks that she was "in her own room". I just couldn't bear leaving her alone.

You son is so beautiful. :)

May 21, 2010 at 8:18 PM  
Blogger 4D Life said...

Good Lord he is precious!!! I agree with the other posters on the Bebe Angel Monitor....Get one today! You will not regret it. Best investment ever.

May 21, 2010 at 10:45 PM  
Blogger Kristi said...

Twenty lbs of pure and precious hunk-a-baby! Love it!! Is it sad that I just want to reach through my screen and squeeze his adorable baby cheeks!

The bassinet stand is gorgeous! Your brother did an amazing job!

I think of your family often. I know precious Cora is so happy to see her little brother bless your family.

May 22, 2010 at 9:32 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

AWWWW. He is so cute.

I hate when they start growing up!

Your blog is adorable!

May 24, 2010 at 11:44 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

PS. I love the name Levi.

May 24, 2010 at 11:44 AM  
Blogger Ki said...

I know we have to trust God with our little ones, but 2 things that really helped us were a video monitor and a motion detector monitor (Angel Care monitor.) Then you know they are breathing and you can see them. The video monitor also helps when they are older and fussing and you want to look and see "is this a standing up, I'm not going back to sleep fuss? Or is this a lying down, I'll settle myself fuss?" Just a thought.

May 26, 2010 at 8:21 PM  
Anonymous Jenn Bontrager said...

Your little Levi is so precious.

May 27, 2010 at 11:40 AM  
Blogger Tina said...

I agree....he is so cute, I can hardly stand it.

Have you ever thought about getting a video monitor? I use one. I sleep with it on and when I wake up I can look right into it & see my little Pooh. Don't get me wrong, I still get up a million times to check on her {and she's 3 1/2}'s nice to have the video monitor too, otherwise I would be in there 2 million times instead of 1. hehe

Blessings from Pooh's Corner.

May 27, 2010 at 3:43 PM  

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