sono #2

Baby Mac is 28 weeks.

That meant it was time for our second sono.

On Monday we headed to Wichita for another trip to the specialist.

We were so nervous.

That drive to Wichita, almost in total silence, seemed all too familiar.

The same trip we took to the hospital over eight months ago.

Except this time Cora wasn't in the back seat.

It is times like these where Cora's absence seems to be screaming at me.

The memories, fears, and pain come rushing back.

Although the waiting and anticipation of that appointment was scary and uncomfortable, I think sometimes I need those times of quiet.

Time to just think and pray.

Time to remember that God has brought us this far

and He is not going to abandon us now.

Time to rely on Him and His strength to get me through another hard thing.

Time to remember that I need to continue to trust.

We walked back into the specialist's office,

having to face Cora's hospital again right across the street.

I tried not to even look.

It is amazing how just being there--not even in the hospital--causes so many pictures, memories, and emotions to start flashing through my mind.

I hate that!

We had the sonogram first.

Baby Mac was moving around again like crazy.

I think we have a wiggly one {and maybe ornery one like daddy} on the way.

The technician talked to us through the whole thing,

and from our perspective it seemed like everything was looking good.

They were going to specifically look at the baby's adrenal glands at this appointment.

That is where Cora's tumor started.

When the doctor walked into the room she flashed a big smile and said,

"Aren't those the most beautiful adrenal glands you have ever seen?"

I think I was still too nervous to respond much,

but it was so wonderful to hear her excitement.

She reassured us that everything was looking great.

Baby Mac looked perfect, adrenal glands and all.

She even gave us a hug when we left.

We are so blessed to have such kind people taking care of us.

And so we are past one more hurdle.

It is hard to believe in a little over 10 weeks

we will be meeting this new little one.

And we even got away with another picture.

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