day by day
So many people are asking how we are doing. Honestly, we often want to answer "horrible". The ache we feel as we grieve the loss of our little girl and how much we miss her is something I can't even describe. Really, we are doing OK (which is what we usually tell people). We are taking things day by day. We couldn't make it through this in our own strength. It is the HOPE that we have in Jesus that is getting us through each day. For that we are so thankful.
We are officially home now. We had been staying with my parents since we got back from Colorado. It was too hard to go home. Our house is SO quiet without Cora. This weekend we felt like it was time to go home though. It has been good to be in our own house. We haven't slept in our own bed for over a month! But it has been hard too. We miss Cora and it doesn't feel "right" to be here without her. The evenings are the worst for me. Thankfully this is when Joel is home. Can I just say that my husband is wonderful?! I can't imagine going through this without him. He has been a rock when I need him to be, but also so willing to talk and cry with me. Joel is amazing, but he desperately misses his little girl too. Pray for strength for him as he continues to work and figure out how to lead our family through this hard path we are on.
"When all that is good falls apart,
what can good people do?"
The LORD is in his holy temple;
the LORD sits on his throne in heaven.
I read this verse this morning and found myself having this same question that David did. What do I do when I feel like my world is falling apart? What do I do without Cora? I know that God is good. I know that He is in his holy temple. I know that He is sitting on His throne in heaven. And I know that my sweet Cora is in His loving arms. But my heart still aches. Joel and I have decided that all we can do is cling to His truth. Even though we don't understand and it doesn't make sense. God is unaltered by our storms. He can use our tragedies to bring glory to His name. We have been so blessed to already see evidence of how God is using Cora's story to draw people to Himself. How awesome!
So, that is a glimpse into our lives right now. We are so thankful that people are continuing to pray for us. We are so thankful for our friends and family and how our community is surrounding us with such love. We are thankful for the encouragement from all our new blog friends.
Now I am off to my mom's house to continue crafting. There are many dresses that are about ready to be listed in our shop. We are hoping to fill up our shop tonight or tomorrow. Keep checking back!