After many people suggesting that we get away after Cora's celebration service, we decided to follow their advice. We headed to Colorado to have some time alone and try to process how our lives have changed so quickly.
It was good to get away, but so hard at the same time. It was good to be together. It was good to be able to talk and cry together. It was good to be in the beautiful mountains. It was good to be able to go skiing and snowmobiling and be able to laugh a little.
But, it was so hard too. It was hard to have time to really think through the past four weeks. It was hard to be on a "vacation" without our Cora. It was hard to be at the cabin where we had taken Cora on her first family vacation just this past summer. It was hard to think about all the fun we had together and know that she is now gone. So many memories.
I don't even like posting pictures anymore. I want Cora to be in them. But, here we are. This day we went snowmobiling and it snowed the entire time we were out. It was beautiful. We didn't get any pictures when we went skiing, but the day we went was sunny and just perfect weather. The mountains were beautiful and I couldn't help but to think about how GREAT and LOVING our God is as I looked at his beautiful creation. Joel got to laugh at me wiping out several times. The next day we both laughed a lot because we could barely walk. We are a little out of shape.
Coming home was hard. It felt like just maybe Cora would be there waiting for us, but we knew she wasn't. We knew we were going back to reality. We both have HUGE holes in our hearts and it is hard to know how to move forward. We are trying. We are so thankful for the friends and family we have who are surrounding us so faithfully and lovingly during this time. We are overwhelmed by all that God is doing through Cora's story. And we are clinging to this same truth that got us through those horrible days in the hospital.
"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him." Lamentations 3:22-24
I have never felt more consumed in my whole life. I am so thankful for our compassionate God and so thankful that His compassions are new EVERY morning. This is definitely a day-by-day process. Thanks for loving us and encouraging us along the way.