This rollercoaster we are on is SO hard. The past few days have been good and we felt like Cora was making some progress. Like we were on our way to getting our little girl back. We even felt comfortable enough to both leave the hospital to go out to eat. Joel's mom stayed with Cora while we were gone. When we were on our way home from dinner we got a call from Joel's mom saying not to panic but we needed to come back to the hospital. Both of our hearts sank. Cora had been fighting her C-PAP all day and pulling her feeding tube out. She was a tired little girl and just wasn't breathing like she needed to. The doctor decided to put her on a ventilator. He said Cora needed to rest and she was working too hard to breathe. It is so sad to see Cora hooked up to all those machines again. It feels like we are moving backwards instead of forwards. Cora will probably be on the ventilator for several days. The doctor is hoping that as Cora rests her body will be able to recover more quickly from the surguries and chemo. So, this is how we left our little girl tonight. Joel's mom is staying in her room tonight so that we can try to sleep.
We continue to be amazed by all the people that know about Cora and are lifting her up to our Heavenly Father. Please continue to pray for our sweet baby. It is so easy for us to get discouraged and feel consumed by this cancer. Especially after a day like today. We don't know how we would get through a single day without Jesus right beside us. As Joel and I talked about the ups and downs of today these are some truths that we are resting in tonight.
"You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you."
"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness."
-The oncologist remains positive about how Cora is responding to chemo
-Cora's strong, fighting spirit
-An encouraging visit from the pastors at Grace
-The FANTASTIC PICU doctors and nurses who is taking such good care of Cora
-I am feeling better today and getting over a sinus infection
-That Cora would be able to rest and her body would heal as she is on the ventilator
-Comfort for Cora (we feel like we can't do much to comfort her)
-The chemo would be getting rid of the cancer
-Patience as we continue to wait for the test results
-That we would rest in God's peace through this very unpeaceful time
-Perseverance as we have a long road ahead