not the monday i planned

Just a quick hello on Monday.

Today was full of all things I had not planned.

I had planned on getting caught up...like any normal Monday.

Cleaning my house...

making food for company tomorrow night...

and taking time to go over what I am sharing tomorrow with a MOPS group.

Instead most of my day was spent comforting this poor baby.

He is still fighting some sickness.

So we went to the doctor today instead.

Levi has ear infections now too.

Yuck. No wonder he has been so grouchy.

I did manage to get a smile or two out of him despite the many tears.

It is hiding behind that pacifier that he is not really supposed to have.

But a sick baby needs his pacifier to get through the day.

Now Levi is sound asleep and I am taking some time to think and pray about tomorrow. As I was reading through my notes I was struck by how one of the same struggles I am sharing about, was a struggle again today. Since we welcomed Levi into our family he has brought so much joy into our lives. But along with the joys has come a whole new realm of trusting God for me. I easily could life my life as a sad, worried, and over-protective mom after losing Cora. I get a pit in my stomach every time we visit the doctor...which happened again today. Sometimes it is hard for me to even hold back the tears because I don't know if I am being a paranoid mom or if Levi is really sick. Thankfully Levi's pediatrician is so patient with me. So again today, I had to pray that I would embrace the fullness of who Jesus is - the ultimate answer to my deepest needs. He is faithful and by my side through every ear infection and doctor visit. He understands my fears and tears. May I always be faithful to trust Him.

Not the Monday I planned, but a good reminder of something God has continually been working on in my heart. And I got in some extra cuddling time with my little Levi. He is so busy these days I need to take advantage of every moment...cuddling doesn't happen very often any more. If you have time would you say a prayer for me tomorrow morning as I share? I am praying that the Lord would use His truths that I have been standing firm on to encourage the ladies who are there tomorrow.