2009 or 2010?
I really thought that Baby Mac might decide to come in December.
Cora was early, so I had my hopes set high.
But I think he/she is content just waiting.
Still nothing happening.
I have another appointment this morning,
so we will see what the doctor says.
It is hard to believe we have made it through nine months. This year has been so hard, and honestly sometimes I miss Cora so much I haven't even been able to think about this pregnancy or the new baby. But now, at any time, we are going to be meeting our second child. It is a weird feeling because I finally feel like Joel and I have figured out how to function in a somewhat graceful way (at least some days) with our new normal. And now everything will be changing again--but this time a welcome change!
I think we feel so excited, yet so scared at the same time. We are scared of moving forward without Cora. Scared that people will think we are "better" now that we have another child. Scared of loving so deeply again. Scared of ever having to watch a child suffer again.
But we know it will be SO worth it. This little baby is such a blessing to us already during an incredibly dark time in our lives. And God does not call us to live in fear. Will you pray for us as we take this next step forward? It is probably silly for me to even ask because I know you have been so faithful to pray for us already. We are praying that we will embrace the fullness of who Jesus is--the ultimate answer to our deepest needs. Whether we are in the hospital saying goodbye to our sweet Cora or in the hospital welcoming a second little miracle, He is faithful and by our side. Our circumstances can change in an instant, but He never does!
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
As we get ready to welcome Baby Mac into our family and approach a new year, may our lives OVERFLOW with hope!