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Saturday, September 25, 2010

a little quiet

I know it has been a little quiet around here the past few weeks. In the words of my blog has been boring. Thanks Anne. Gotta love the honesty of a sister!

I told you that we have been really busy. We have. There is plenty I could blog about, but for whatever reason, I haven't had much to say.

Maybe it is because all the busyness sometimes creeps up and drowns out the important things...the things that should take priority.

Maybe it is because my heart has been a little heavy lately. Not for any particular reason. Sometimes the things going on around us just seem heavy, don't they?

Or maybe it is because I have had a few days where the rush of sadness has crept in unexpectedly. I miss my little girl.

I have just felt like I need to be quiet. To say nothing. To listen.

I am thankful that God knows what is going on even when I can't quite figure it out. He knows my heart. And not just my heart, but your heart too. When you have had a week like me, when your heart is heavy and you don't know quite what to say, He knows. You don't have to say anything. I love that. I love that I can come before my Heavenly Father with all of my messes and He already knows exactly what I need.

Don't worry though. Next week won't be as quiet around here. I have lots of things to share with you including a giveaway. You won't want to miss it!

And even though it has been quiet on the blog...
it hasn't been quiet around my house.

This little guy has been keeping me on my toes. He is into everything and he is NOISY. I love it though. I can't tell you how thankful I am for his grunts and noises and screams echoing through our house. I wouldn't want it any other way.

See you Monday!


Blogger Blair said...

I agree! There are often times in my life when the best thing I can do is be quiet. Isn't that always when God seems to speak to us the loudest? Have a nice weekend!

September 25, 2010 at 9:28 PM  
Blogger JuliaVP said...

As your site was loading, I saw little Cora's face on the header before I even read your post. And it hit me... WOW! That beautiful baby is with Jesus !

I pray that God is continuing to bless you... even in the pain.

September 25, 2010 at 9:47 PM  
Blogger Stef said...

good to hear from you, Jess. I still pray for you. We have a friend here named Kora and every time I say her name or we visit with her... I say a quick prayer for you, because it makes me think of your sweet Cora Paige.

I'm looking forward to the posts coming up AND the giveaway!!

September 25, 2010 at 10:50 PM  
Blogger Todd and Courtney said...

Hang in there! The quiet is so peaceful. Our cries are heard and God knows how much Cora is missed. I miss her too and seeing her updates. Levi is precious and I'm so so happy he is there to fill your house with laughter and keep you on your toes :)

September 25, 2010 at 10:59 PM  
Blogger The Moffats said...

jess, so sorry that things have been feeling extra heavy lately and that the sadness has been creeping in. praying for you through all the changes and busyness. i'm missing sweet Cora and can only imagine how much more...much much more...your heart aches for her. love you. miss you.

September 26, 2010 at 12:30 AM  
Blogger Mum2twopreciousgifts said...

Hi Jess

I don't agree. I never find your blog boring. Ever. You could probably type the alphabet, add in a nursery rhyme for good measure and topped off with a photo of Levi, I would still enjoy it. And it would remind me to stop a moment and be grateful for my Blessings.

Will look forward to your blog updates next week. Cheerio!

September 26, 2010 at 5:17 AM  
Blogger Tricia said...

I have found that quiet blog weeks are often the weeks that I just need to be in my own head and really "in" the lives of my family members. We are still here. Still praying.


September 26, 2010 at 10:09 AM  
Blogger onlymehere said...

He's growing so fast! What an absolute doll. Sometimes our quiet moments are the best bz our hearts and minds are more open to His inspiration. :)

September 26, 2010 at 12:34 PM  
Anonymous Nan said...

I have been in a long quiet period on my blog. But I have learned why I really blog. I blog for me... for those who come after me... I don't blog for an audience. I'd much rather blog only when I have something worthwhile to share then to just constantly empty my head onto the internet (that's what FB is for! HA!!) but really... learning to keep it all in perspective is good and that means that sometimes your blog will be a bit quieter. That's okay. It means you are actually living -- the good, the bad, the happy, the sad. Sharing that life is a second priority to just breathing in and breathing out.

September 26, 2010 at 5:45 PM  
Anonymous Kris said...

You are such an inspiration! A friend of mine lost her 19 month old granddaughter this week and I plan on sharing your story with her soon. I know your blog will be of help to her.

Any plans on the store opening soon... I have twins coming in Feb. that need a Cora dress!

September 26, 2010 at 5:54 PM  
Blogger meg duerksen said...

i am sure that mentally preparing your heart for the race for hope had to be really hard on you jess.
but there is no prep for that.
it's too hard.

so....i will keep thinking of you.
and sweet cora.

and your blog is not boring. ANN!!!
show me all the stuff i missed out on at the barn?!!!

September 27, 2010 at 12:32 AM  
Blogger Marsha said...

This post spoke to me today. I was feeling the exact same way-a heavy heart that can't be put into words. But God knows. He knows where we are and what we need. I find such comfort in knowing that! Thanks for continuing to be an encouraging voice in my life.

Love and prayers,


September 27, 2010 at 7:05 AM  
Anonymous Danise said...

"Be still and know that I am God."

September 27, 2010 at 9:25 AM  
Anonymous carrie metz said...

Quiet or not quiet . . . the realness of who you are is the refreshing part of reading your updates. Thanks again for sharing your journey with us Jess.

September 27, 2010 at 10:43 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I come here often, and post rarely, but am always amazed at your faith and perseverance. Your little Levi is so precious and has grown so big, he's just too cute! I have been thinking of you in regards to Cora and the run you've done for her. I live in NJ and a family from Marlboro,NJ started a non-profit when their little Billy was diagnosed with NB. It's called Arms Wide Open Childhood Cancer Foundation, and they are in the running to win $250,000 from the Pepsi Refresh Everything contest that ends September 30. It's money that would go to doctors at Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center in NYC to fund less toxic therapies for children with NB. I thought maybe you wouldn't mind voting for them, and spreading the word with all you know to vote. You can vote daily by texting to 73774 (Pepsi) message 102653. Also online daily at Every vote brings them closer to winning this grant and helping try to save countless children. If you have a FB page you can also vote daily at the Pepsi Refresh Voting app. I promise I'm not solicitaing for Pepsi, just trying to spread the word about such an important cause. Thanks for your help and for your heartfelt entries,


September 27, 2010 at 12:03 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

For some reason part of my message was cut voting is at

Thanks again,

September 27, 2010 at 12:04 PM  
Blogger Sarah said...

Thank you for your post. It was just what I needed to hear? My heart has been heavy for so long and sometimes I feel so distant from God. It's nice to know that he is NEVER away from me.

September 27, 2010 at 2:51 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It is a small world. I was born and lived in Wichita until I was 13 when we moved, however I came back and graduated from K-State. Now we live in Michigan and somehow my wife found your blog and reads it. I sat down at the computer tonight to work and see your blog which she left open and skim through it. I see a Christian family who lives in Kansas who are Wildcats. My heart breaks as I read about your daughter. I am writing just so you know a family in Michigan (who happens to bleed purple and white), is thinking and praying about your family.

February 8, 2011 at 8:30 PM  

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